88 Degrees and then . . .

Ninety – 90- yes, hot. For us. I don’t believe the humidity is predicted to be too high, though.

Of course, I am sitting in air-conditioning. That is because pretty much everyone has AC today, which, in turn, means that for the most part, the outside has a lot fewer trees. It also means that in my lifetime, people have gone from greeting one another with a ‘Whoa, it’s going to be another scorcher’ to waiting until they have made it from car to mall (or Wal-Mart)  to acknowledge anyone.

I remember when we used to wait minute by minute, hour by hour, for the heat to ‘break’ – ah, that cool air that moved in after a storm. It was an Alka-Seltzer weather moment.

Onion hands

I just rubbed my nose and would not have really been aware of doing it had not the smell of ONION triggered my brain into thinking FOOD. Yesterday I sauteed a bit of onion (Vidalia) to put on part of a cheese pizza from Little Caesar’s. It turned out to be tasty, although the pieces were weighty – I had to eat by sliding the piece to the edge of the plate and taking a bite. Definitely not restaurant manners, but effective.

I have washed my hands many, many times since then, and still the aroma of cooked onions clings to my fingers. In fact, I keep interrupting this typing to take a sniff.

SNIFF SNIFF SNIFF SNIFF SNIFF

Hmmmm, hungry . . . on my way to the kitchen.

A little bit of review

I came across a picture of Newfie – Who is “Newfie?” you ask. Well, here she is:

Here’s the last part of the above linked post:

Newfie is a Raggedy Ann type of d__l. Technically, she is from the Noo branch of the family, the Woos being from China, the Foos sweet and a little funloving, the Spoofs are beach girls who use Val Speak, the Spiffies have good heads on their shoulders and are quiet and demure. The list could go on.

Noo has always been a pleasant little thing, but sometimes it seems she is a little quirky, like a clock that keeps its own time. Sort of like the Newfoundland Time Zone that is 30 minutes “off” – that is, right smack in the middle of Atlantic Time and Eastern Time.

That is how we realized that we had misunderstood: she was not a Noofie, but a Newfie. Actually, I have a friend who lived a great deal of her life in Canada and she used to smile and say the folks in Quebec and Ontario referred the the Newfoundland folks as “Newfies” and her smile turned rather impish.

But to get to this morning’s occurrence, driving back form taking my daughter-in-law to work, I spied a cute little copperish-orange mini SUV (or would that be suv) in front of me and the license plate said “NEWFIE 6”. As we came to an intersection, the NEWFIE vehicle number 6 went on through the yellow light and left me sitting at the red. I guess she was on to me.

So, maybe Newfie is not what she seems; maybe she travels in a big fancy RV licensed “NEWFIE 1” and the little cars run around doing her errands – like getting early morning doughnuts. And just because I saw “6” doesn’t mean there are only that many in the fleet . . . She could have an empire.

Gosh, maybe Newfie is from Manitoba . . . Nah, not our little Newf.

And so now?

Sydney’s was a link to so many things – Quentin and I got him when he was six months old. As a puppy he would run around at full speed and then jump on the bed and fall over 90 degrees in one unified motion. The first time he did it, it scared me . . . but he had just decided time for a nap.

He was in Little Ann’s shadow a lot, but I think he kind of used it to get his own special attention. He shared milestone moments with me, including  the last lucid periods of my parents’ lives. He was there with me as life happened around me. He was sitting by me when I picked up my phone and learned in April that my husband’s niece had died. I sat there stunned and he cocked his head back and forth trying to understand.

I don’t know what I thought he was – some divine link holding parts of my life together? He always got better when he was sick . . . and then this weekend he didn’t get sick – he had a catastrophic failure and he stopped. And that was that.

But, Sydney, you were a part of my life that spanned my world changing and now you are gone and I feel alone. So, what now?

I guess I’ll just post about some little things and not wander into that area where I think: “Gee, what would happen if I pulled this switch, turned this knob, opened that door?”

Baby Steps. Ah, see, Sydney, I have not lost my humor . . . Bill Murray, dontcha know.

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These last couple of posts have been in the font I’ve always had, but the ones before somehow morphed into a stronger one. I have no idea why. Well, I tried to update WordPress and they said, ACH, nein, my little fraulein, your server is not supporting PHP 5.2 so you are in maintenance mode.  One thing led to another and I was advised to click a certain box in the PHPconfigure part of the control panel.

Now, I have this situation, which isn’t anything at all – except I’m thinking maybe I like the stronger font better. I think I’ll let it ride for awhile. Who knows what evil lurks in the code of a blog.

Watershed

We have so many stories about Little Ann – she defined an era in our lives. And when she died, we missed her and she will always be a part of our shared history. But this dog, this Sydney, his passing is affecting me differently; it is a watershed moment. I feel a shift, a change, a screen door closing behind me – one that I can see through but mounted above a threshold I cannot cross again.

I know I am not lost, but right now, for awhile, I want to sit and rest before I shoulder my pack again.

Sydney: 1997-2111

Well, the content of this post is not what I wrote originally because when I clicked publish it only published the title – and nowhere could I find auto-saved versions. I don’t know what happened, but my vision was blurring and my throat tight and perhaps I clicked the wrong area.

I won’t try to rewrite it; I will write it anew.

Sydney died last night but he is not gone; he can’t be-he will always be in our hearts. Yes, he was a dog – sometimes people say “just a dog” – but he was part of our humanity. Most of us here tend to keep feelings inside and shed tears in private, but Sydney was one who was always allowed to be with us at our saddest. Maybe it was a burden on him – but I think it was a part of his being loved unconditionally and I think he knew that.

He had a long life and we are grateful for that. He went quickly and did not languish in  pain or disability that could not be explained. From the moment the attack began, people who loved him were with him; I think he knew that and felt comforted.

He will rest with Mother – he always stayed with her when I had to be gone.