Thinking back

I was on the sofa yesterday, not watching TV, not reading, not even surfing on the computer; what I was doing was thinking about my digestive tract, which had been given my some, er, problems. Later in the evening, my mind moved back to ‘the long ago” and I remembered I had a picture on the blog from another time when I was rummaging in the past. It’s here.

Well, look, I found it in the media library – it wasn’t one of those I had put in by name – it was labeled “scan”, instead of Two Roberts.

This would have been in 1971 when my folks came out to Iowa State University to bring Robert William and me home for the summer, while Der Bingle continued his graduate work in the scorching heat of the Iowa plains.

We came back through Illinois and made a stop at Lincoln’s Tomb and then stopped at my paternal grandmother’s in Kingman, Indiana.

Robert William’s grandpa loved him very much and when he died, Robert remarked he was the most decent man he knew.

Rose sighs

Rose just came over and looked at me and remarked to Sophie, “Oh, Lord, it’s one of THOSE days.” * Apparently, I am doing it again – the morose mood wandering thing that happens when I think about my little self. This is just what I need – Rose rallying the troops to keep me from going back to bed. Der Bingle always remarks, “You don’t want to let Rose down.”

“Okay, okay. I’m up and facing the day.” I sigh, knowing full-well Rose is going to say something about that being a start and to say it again with conviction and feeling.

*See post below

Why is The Tipping Point not active

Over there to the left – nothing has qualified for The Tipping Point since July? I can’t believe that. Surely I have encountered such moments since then; have I not noticed them? Is it because I have moved on to the The Straw that Broke the Cow’s Back moments? Funny . . .  I have felt rather low to the floor with arms and legs splayed out lately.

Or perhaps they come so frequently that they blend together into my new normal. Sort of like the theory in Awakenings that the patients are twitching so fast they are paralyzed. Well, now I’ve done it – gone from a little fanciful thinking into a topic that confounds me. What happened in the brain to these people? What happened that it was reversible for a short period of time? Actually, it is scary. So much unknown right inside us; so many little switches  . . .

And, of course, probably my first awareness of this – when I realized that some other little girls didn’t have to work to be nice . . . that it was easy for them. That they probably thought my pouting and snits were something I chose. No, they just flowed out of me so naturally. Some times I wonder what it would be like to be good-natured. I’m wondering now . . . and not getting anywhere.

What a way to start my day – maybe this just tipped the scales to send me back to bed.

We are amused

I saved the book that arrived just days after THIS POST to read after Christmas. It was hard not to fling my face into it, but I really wanted something to look forward to in that week that leads up to New Year’s and, eventually, February – that waiting room of a month between seasons. So I am reading it – The Anglo Files – and I have already had actual smiles on my face.  And I am not an easy smiler. In fact, I abhor times when people ask me to look at something funny and then watch my face for a reaction. Yes, it may be humorous but my mind registers it and goes on – except when someone is watching and I have to fake it or explain, “You know I’m not a smiler.”

I actually had to stop reading and just breathe and press my lips together after she pulled off the Wallis Simpson and “look what happened to her” comment.

But, anyway, my mind is still back in that first paragraph up there – the part about face-flinging; yes, it is a bit off the fling definition.  I have been using the verb “fling” a lot lately. I know how I was exposed: A book describing clicker training for dogs remarked that some eager little intelligent ones would learn so quickly they would fling themselves on the floor when given the down command. I don’t know why my amusement provided a pathway for the “fling” virus into my language area, but it did.

I don’t know, maybe Wallis Simpson married Edward VIII and had a fling. Well, that just popped out; I’d better put myself on lockdown until safeguards are put in place . . . or, at least, little warning signs.

Days pass

I knew they would. I knew it back when Der Bingle made reservations for Quentin that he would come and then days would pass and it would be time for him to leave. And today he is . . . leaving, that is. I was going to go to the airport with Der Bingle to see him off, but thought about the hour drive there and back and the emotions and elected to stay here with Shane. We can cheer each other up . . . or at least sit together on the sofa and sigh.

I didn’t really take any pictures; I think because I want to keep the days in my heart. But I gave Quentin a camera and he has videos of Shane running and sitting and Wubba chasing and doing the “pull at your heartstrings” gaze.

My gosh, I believe I hear a bit of Kipling echoing from those photos . . .

Come back ye Quentin friend

Christmas apron

It is wadded up in a ball in the laundry room – this white apron with a little blue print on it. I think it was made probably sometime in the 40’s or 50’s. Grandma wore it and Mother wore it and, this Christmas, I put it on. I had two reasons: I had come across it and I wanted to wear it and the second is that I forgot until I got two splashes on my shirt and put it on to cover them up.

It fared pretty well, not getting too splattered, although there are two obvious red spots where cocktail sauce dripped off the shrimp I was scarfing down while doing kitchen things.

When I took it off, I just tossed it in the laundry room, and a brief while ago, I feared I should have shown more respect. I think in the future I will take a little more care, just so I can make certain it stays around for awhile; but it is just an apron and Grandma tossed it and Mother tossed it and it was part of everyday life.

It is not a relic . . . well, maybe it is . . . but it is a used relic. I don’t want the day to come when people frame a shred of cloth that came from the True Apron.

Still Christmas, but after presents, after dinner

I am having a problem with Christmas; it seems like a schedule. Perhaps that is because of the point I am at in the schedule of my life. I just don’t know, so I’m not going to write any more about it; I may not think about for a while, either.

I think I’m going to crawl into warm cozy spot and read or play some adventure game on this little old laptop. And, of course, there are the leftovers.

If he’s on the plane . . .

If he’s on the plane, he’s in the air and on his way to Fort Wayne and Der Bingle and Cameron and Summer are going to down to get him and then stop on the way home at Logan’s. Shane and Sydney and I are here at home with the elves getting not in the Christmas spirit, but getting into the spirits. Ha Ha Ha . . .  I kid. We are getting in the sparkling grape juice and the fancy glasses . . . stems and everything. And jarlsberg cheese dip. And, of course, Coke and Diet Coke.