I have an old bench in my backseat, resting on a Pendleton wool blanket – one Mother probably got at GoodWill for a fraction of its retail price. It is not an antique, just old – pioneer, settler type old. Relicky old.

I don’t know what I’m going to do with it or where I am going to put it, but I got carried away with my mental meanderings and carried it to the car. And there it rests. It is possible it might be there five days from now; I am so defined by procrastination it is ridiculous.

While I was the LaGrange House, I realized I had only one bottle of water there. Usually I have bottles of water in my trunk, in different rooms of the house, in different refrigerators, in different houses. This time: one bottle. How did this happen? Obviously, I have not properly stocked the trunk of the car I am now driving – although, I did manage to transfer the Lands End Robin Egg Blue Trapper Winter Hat.

I will have to gather packs of tuna, cans of soda, a 24 pack of bottled water, a couple of packs of iced tea mix, extra underwear, paper towels, more tools, a sleeping bag, a couple of sweatshirts . . . numerous gadgets including a whistle with a compass and so on.

Now, doesn’t that make you feel better about yourself? Not THAT crazy; not AmeliaJake crazy?

Last week on Thursday I met two of my first cousins who were visiting the Shipshewana area and we spent the day together. This morning I read an email from one of them that was written last evening. The other cousin has become seriously ill. I was shocked, stunned . . . but there it is, an unexpected unfolding story. You can’t flip the pages ahead; you just turn them day by day.

A week ago it wasn’t a story at all. Life: it surprises you; it always does. (Bette Davis)

Cameron and I devoted two hours to the garage today – for the sake of establishing on-going project work. We got one half of the garage cleared out and and swept and designated the front corner for the “dumpster pile”. Everything in the house that needs to be thrown out is now going to that pile. We enlisted Robert who emptied out expired drinks and squashed plastic bottles and, most crucial, played Wubba with Shane and kept the fire pit going.

We stomped lots of stuff in the trash cans and found a couple of things and then called it quits for the day. That leaves the other wall of the garage and the little add-on behind the piano. Yes, didn’t that sentence test your equilibrium? The red piano. The red piano in the garage. I know. Sad. We are thinking of moving it into the den. Now that will be a long term project. I wonder if we should paint it another color or if that would take away its magic.

I am not complaining about the cool weather; it feels odd, however, to be sitting in a sweatshirt with the heater on my damp-feeling feet in July. It reminds me of the Ohio River Valley at Cincinnati in November.

We have been waiting for predicted rain all day. At first it was supposed to be at noon, then two, and now, maybe at 4:30 pm. It is good for Fair Week, though; the animals are cool and the rain has held off for the 4-H’ers. I don’t know what is planned at the grandstand tonight, but at least it has a roof.

That’s what we are doing at the Peanut Butter Cafe & Roadhouse, sitting around talking about the weather and not much else. We are in our old man mode, though we are not chawin’ and spittin’.

Most of the people here have been having sore throats with elevated temperatures. I have been fine, but yesterday and today my throat has become a little scratchy. I think it may be psychosomatic, but in case it is not, let me say, RATS. And if it is not, and gets worse, people will be saying, Yes! She’s not talking as much.

Time will tell. In the meantime, I have decided to take it easy while time tells. That would not be a Margaret Thatcher decision, but it works for me. Ironically, I feel as if I want to “do” something, but that may be because I have already decided that I will not “do” anything. I remember having a tremendous amount of writing to do in a short time in Cincinnati and having an urge to really clean the kitchen. Oh, I could get it so shiny if I just didn’t have these articles to write . . . I don’t remember finding myself feeling like that in the kitchen at other times.

Well, maybe I will do this one little thing: put my favorite afghan in the washer. It is beginning to smell as if someone might have wiped snacking fingers on it a time or two. Maybe some with popcorn butter on them? The sun is out and it’s a little windy, so it should smell quite nice when dry. Yell if it starts to rain. Thanks.

Last Thursday at a B&B in Howe, Indiana, I saw some hostas with blooms and lamented that my hostas had put all their energy into making leaves after having been almost wiped out by the really cold winter we had.

Well, I walked out back today and there they were: blooms. Maybe the Wubbameister made them nervous about showing their faces.

Shane likes this position, but he is on probation since he jumped out the window after a squirrel and almost gave Cameron a heart attack.

I think he needs a little navigator’s flight helmet – the leather kind – when he rides in the passenger seat. He has come to really like that seat and growled at Summer the other day when she suggested he move to the backseat. He prevailed.

I have spent the day re-reading The Lords of Discipline by Pat Conroy; I need to go back and start going over some more of the other good books I have read instead of letting myself get sucked in by a 99 cent Kindle book that sports an intriguing little plot description. My main problem is the nagging question: What happens next? Even if I have been wise and downloaded a sample and it turns out to be a crummy book, curiosity is a hard siren to fight. It may not kill the cat, but it uses up small sums of Kindle money that could be added up to purchase a well-written book.

There are no days when there are no stories, just days when one is too lackadaisical to write about them. This is one of them. I did eat some left over Cousin Vinny pizza however – the one with artichoke hearts as one of the toppings.

One view of the soupy salad. Der Bingle had words to describe it . . . and they referred to Shane’s occasional upchucking.

Ok, were I a reviewer of restaurants for a publication other than this blog, I would have to return to this restaurant to feel that I was being fair. But, I gotta tell ya, based on my first, and probably only visit, it was a disappointing experience. Not a really horrible, terrible eatery experience, but definitely one that left some things to be desired.

So what, you might ask. And even if you have not, I am going to tell you anyway. I could start by saying there was  no seating hostess  available and no sign indicating one could choose a table, but that pales when finally told by a server of the half-filled restaurant that they had no more menus. NO MENUS. The server was obviously not one comfortable with English we could not discuss the matter. He could bring us drinks and chips and salsa, but his English was not adequate to explain there was no mild salsa, just a choice – one salsa with a bite or no salsa for you. Actually, we did then have to ask twice for the salsa they had to go with the chips that brought to the table.

A waitress explained that they did not have enough menus and were usually busy on Thursdays? Yes? We weren’t certain how this was related, but, hey, the people who kept coming in did seem to be drinking very large margaritas and large beers. Maybe there is a drink sale on Thursday; I don’t know.

There is something I do know about: my taco salad with beef. I don’t feel like talking about it now, because it was like SOUP. I took a picture and will revisit this soggy topic tomorrow.

The little blond boy who died in the car. The little blond boy who died in a hot car. The little blond boy who died in a hot car when his father allegedly forgot and left him there throughout a workday. Anyone following the story knows that several factors have surfaced that do not jive with the little boy being forgotten all day, or forgotten at all. The parents researched hot child deaths and said it was their greatest fear.

Great fears tend to make people over vigilant and leave them self-guessing themselves – think of someone with a gas stove returning home to make certain it was, indeed, turned off. Think of someone afraid of home invasion repeatedly checking locks.

Maybe a note on the steering wheel or visor? Maybe a wallpaper picture of the child on a phone or computer? Maybe an irresistible urge to run out to the parking lot to check, or a call to daycare if it were the other parent’s turn?

Their greatest fear.

I  can’t fathom the reported behavior of the parents because I cannot imagine anyone being anything but devastated beyond words, let alone reason if something like that happened. However, whether I can understand it or not, apparently the father talked about having committed a felony after pulling into the parking lot with the dead child in the car. The mother sat her husband down and asked him if he thought he had told the police too much.

I have driven with a little blond boy in my backseat during two different times of my life. I feel myself shudder and grow physically ill at the thought of opening a car door and realizing what the new reality was. I would be on my knees, sobbing, hysterical. I would probably be demanding to wake up from the nightmare.

If it were their greatest fear, I am dumbfounded they would not have taken extra precautions, and obviously what I am suggesting is the unthinkable: A little boy being purposely left to die.